Twenty-Two December.
Salam, people.
The title of this post is just today's date. I dont really know what to say here. Just I feel like writing to you, to this blog. I remember updating my old blog in December regularly, because it's school holiday. Plus I feel a little bit emo and sad, because it's always gonna be that song related to this month - Back To December, all the time. Damn memories. 2018 will come to an end, how amazing. I am so done with the second year of degree, first semester. I dont know. I am not really excited to leave the uni, I mean, graduate. Of course everyone wants to you know, graduate as fast as they can. Somehow, I am not like them. Im scared of commitments. Im scared of the scary world out there. Will I have a career that I've always wanted? If you ask me now what is it, I dont have any answer, really. I dont have any goals, nor dream. People know what they are going to be in the future. A doctor, a lawyer, an engineer. For me, Idk. Teacher? Nope, thats not what my course is about. Idk guys. What a loser right?
Always. Always a loser. I just want to be able to help my family financially. I will be grateful enough if I can do that. Just that. And, my classmate is getting married today. Already got married, indeed. Wow, again, isnt that amazing. While here I am today, wondering what to eat for dinner, what kdrama to download, what are the things to do in this deadly whole week. I think my soul is dead. I want to be home so much right now but because of one paper left I need to be here until the end of this year. Oh Godddd. I just sleep and eat and sleep again today. I dont know what to do really. Ugh my life is so interesting, in bracket. The girls and guys around my age already managed to go Aberdeen, and discover another part of this world while here's me. Struggling, every day and night. But, whatever. Ugh whatever. Shit now Im sad.
I really cannot do anything well. Either it's driving, or cooking, or studying. All will ended up in the gutter. Sigh.............. I miss my life. My old life. Not to say I hate my life now, but...well maybe.
I hope my life will be more interesting in the future.
The title of this post is just today's date. I dont really know what to say here. Just I feel like writing to you, to this blog. I remember updating my old blog in December regularly, because it's school holiday. Plus I feel a little bit emo and sad, because it's always gonna be that song related to this month - Back To December, all the time. Damn memories. 2018 will come to an end, how amazing. I am so done with the second year of degree, first semester. I dont know. I am not really excited to leave the uni, I mean, graduate. Of course everyone wants to you know, graduate as fast as they can. Somehow, I am not like them. Im scared of commitments. Im scared of the scary world out there. Will I have a career that I've always wanted? If you ask me now what is it, I dont have any answer, really. I dont have any goals, nor dream. People know what they are going to be in the future. A doctor, a lawyer, an engineer. For me, Idk. Teacher? Nope, thats not what my course is about. Idk guys. What a loser right?
Always. Always a loser. I just want to be able to help my family financially. I will be grateful enough if I can do that. Just that. And, my classmate is getting married today. Already got married, indeed. Wow, again, isnt that amazing. While here I am today, wondering what to eat for dinner, what kdrama to download, what are the things to do in this deadly whole week. I think my soul is dead. I want to be home so much right now but because of one paper left I need to be here until the end of this year. Oh Godddd. I just sleep and eat and sleep again today. I dont know what to do really. Ugh my life is so interesting, in bracket. The girls and guys around my age already managed to go Aberdeen, and discover another part of this world while here's me. Struggling, every day and night. But, whatever. Ugh whatever. Shit now Im sad.
I really cannot do anything well. Either it's driving, or cooking, or studying. All will ended up in the gutter. Sigh.............. I miss my life. My old life. Not to say I hate my life now, but...well maybe.
I hope my life will be more interesting in the future.
mynn
22/12/2018
6:59 PM
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