Life update.

Salam, all. Pease be upon you.

Third November. It's been nearly a month now since I've started my degree journey. So far so good? I guess. Degree life and foundation is just the same. But a lot of work. LOTS more. I have tons of assignments which need to be sent next 2 weeks. And still, Im wasting time. Procrastinating at its best. Cool huh. Okay now it's 5 November guys. Even this entry becomes my victim of procrastination. *cries* Tonight I want to rant some more about adulthood, and what I learnt about it. Life is a learning process anyway, right?

I went to visit my friend at the hospital just now. She's not sick, but her mother is. Got some complications after a surgery and currently in the Intensive Care Unit. I know, what a great ujian there right. But she is so strong, she didnt even cry in front of us, well maybe she did but just a little. Life is full of surprise isn't it. Last month I got a news, my former batchmate had passed away because of accident (Al-Fatihah). Then last night someone told me that someone who's 19, same age with me, is married. Already. Yesterday I woke up and 5:45 am and read the news about my friend's mom. Bad news, good news. Adulthood. Instead of just repeating the same routine over and over again everyday during highschool, only worried about when to do my homework, now we're in the phase where everything, anything could happen overnight, I mean BIG thing. Life changing thing. It may not happen to me, but I can feel the pain. Unbearable.

We want to make her feel better, so we basically just talked about sometimes that will make her happy. To see her smile. Ya but who knows whats in her heart tho. Only He knows and I hope that He will give her that strength to face this, insyaAllah, Amin. Then we went to eat because yaa hungry. I noticed that whenever I am with my high school friends, I feel like home. They are a family. The bond is really strong !! The friendship is.......real. I dont mind spending money just to meet them, be with them a day or two, comfort them when they are in need of someone, rushed to them if they had some kind of problem. That is a true love, isnt it? I wish I can live with them again tho :( I mean I miss my hostel life with them around. The reason why sometimes I miss school. Now the distance is killing......but that's okay, We will always find our ways to meet each other.

Next, my life update. Pretty much boring, but better. It's good. All good. I'm happy Alhamdulillah and I hope He will ease everything for me, for us until the end of this journey. Cant wait to the robe-day ! (but here i am , still in year 1, semester 1) Huahua. Im trying not to overthink, be more active, be more outspoken (still cant in class sobs) know how to manage my time well, not to stress myself with something that is not important, not to cry...........yes im still trying. Slowly but surely, right? But it sometimes you see me whining at twitter, just ignore it guys, Im gonna be cool in a few minutes !

Love life? Only my heart knows :)

Pray for me to be that strong girl, like my friends. We are all strong inside, okay? Better days are coming!!!

mynn

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