Second semester.

Assalamualaikum and hi!
It's been a while. Now im in my second semester of degree. Im not ready but okay. Jan has been a draggy month anyway and I dont feel like mereput at home anymore. Cheers to a new life! But you know what is the main reason why I suddenly want to update this blog tonight, yes true. Im just sad. Sad people writes, remember that? I dont know why I am sad tonight. Im overwhelming with emotions ( but since when im not pfft ). I miss Yayah. I miss my old life, memories..yada yada and the list goes on.........is it bcs im tired? Yeah today I stand for 3 hours straight in line just to add 1 freaking subject...but Alhamdulillah it went well. And went up and down searching for classes I'll be attending to this sem. I swear my back hurts so much rn. I need some rest. Tomorrow's going to be a long day.......

I feel like crying rn idek why. I thought Im over it-the black memories of my life. I thought I had finally moved on but at times....it still hurts. I know I shouldnt be like this shouldnt even care or feel this way but I cant stop it from coming. Thank God, no more tears (at least). Why did I have such a great old life years ago? Why cant I feel the same way now? - Thats what I feel. Just being emotional. Life is a roller coaster ride!!! I know I know. Life is just being tougher than it ever was :( and I swear Im just the weakest human being ever :((. I need to take a few tough subjects this year Im a little bit scared :( Maybe not a little. IM REALLY SCARED. How can people scored four flat in the long semester tell me !!! How to stay focus tho.... I only have Him to rely on, but He's all I really need in life. InsyaAllah, he'll give me patience and perseverance to endure this semester.

Ugh. I hope this kinda feeling will fade away soon, as soon as possible. What hormones are kicking in rn???!!! Please go away !!!!

See u in happier time, I suppose.

mynn

5/2/2018

9:56PM