Late birthday's entry.
Salam, and its in the a.m. right now.
Im studying for my first paper of final exam this Thursday. I mean well, precisely tomorrow. I am so nervous because basically, I dont know what to study. May Allah ease all. I have a mixed feelings right now. I dont know why. Maybe because of my anxieties? Panic attack. It all happened after I broke my locker's door unintentionally just now. Dont worry, its all fixed, I am still shooketh. I did not expect that the locker's door will snapped off like that haha, my bad. Uncontrollably strength, maybe? But it's not important. I dont feel calm right now. Plus that poslaju thingy is being a biotch ugh, my parcel isnt arrived yet since last week, and rn im overthinking about it. Next I saw my crush's story and he's out with a girl......maybe he got a girlfriend already. Frustrating. It's not like I am into him that much, it's been a while since I last met him anyway. CFS crush, so it doesnt really matter. (but still a lil bit sad.......) Despite all of that, here I am writing to my blog, left all the notes aside. I am still homesick, even though home is just a week away, but I feel like ending everything right at the moment. Can I just not sit for my exam please? I am still demotivated somehow :(
Anyway, I owe you my birthday entry. Here's a late one, because on my birthday past 3 days I am a little bit lost? and lazy. And I had no life. I had an amazing birthday, mainly because of the wishes I got. I am so thankful for everyone who had wished me, and sending me nice words and duas and all. They really made my day okay, dont underestimate birthday wishes, you dont know how much it means to the receiver. I valued birthday wishes eventhough its a short one. But to be honest I feel a little bit sad when my so called bestfriend only wish me in the ws group. I mean, I did wish her at twitter with her pictures and all that, why cant she wished me a little bit more special than just a simple one. In the freaking whatsapp group. Its like I am not receiving the same love that I gave. She can wish me personally duh, whatsapp me personally, with a little bit "I miss you"s or whatever. But she didnt. Okay then whatever. I will not wish you at all during your birthday next year, because I treat people the way they treat me. Fullstop. I value people who values me. And, I am not going to settle for anything less. That includes for the ones who didnt wish me for my birthday at all because I did wish them. Is it just me who think that birthday wishes are important? Especially when you contacted that person every freaking day or used to be bestfriends. Even if you forgot their birthday you should make up for it, isn't that some kinda friendship rules???
Yeah I know, my birthday is freaking boring cuz no ones want to surprise me with balloons and cakes, thats why I love receiving wishes, the only things that made me feel appreciated on my birthday. On my day. Its only once a year after all. The conclusion is, lesson learnt. I am not going to wish anyone who doesnt wish me. As simple as that. But the weird part is when they did wish me when I didnt wish them tho :/ , I am so sorry !
He did sent me a birthday wish again, you know who. I though I wont receive it anymore this year because he seems happy (?) and I can accept it anyway if he didn't. But he did :') Well, thank you. Because you still remember. It's just a short conversation anyway. Maybe what's left between us is only manners. I do hate you for what you've done but as time passes, it does not matter anymore. What had happened will stay happened. A (great) life lesson. Wishing you a bright future ahead ! (me too) (everyone else too).
I am twenty.but I still love to watch barbie
Wish me luck for my final exam! Semester two is gonna end soon yeay! Hello, second year !
(and my cgpa is shi...................no comment.)
Im studying for my first paper of final exam this Thursday. I mean well, precisely tomorrow. I am so nervous because basically, I dont know what to study. May Allah ease all. I have a mixed feelings right now. I dont know why. Maybe because of my anxieties? Panic attack. It all happened after I broke my locker's door unintentionally just now. Dont worry, its all fixed, I am still shooketh. I did not expect that the locker's door will snapped off like that haha, my bad. Uncontrollably strength, maybe? But it's not important. I dont feel calm right now. Plus that poslaju thingy is being a biotch ugh, my parcel isnt arrived yet since last week, and rn im overthinking about it. Next I saw my crush's story and he's out with a girl......maybe he got a girlfriend already. Frustrating. It's not like I am into him that much, it's been a while since I last met him anyway. CFS crush, so it doesnt really matter. (but still a lil bit sad.......) Despite all of that, here I am writing to my blog, left all the notes aside. I am still homesick, even though home is just a week away, but I feel like ending everything right at the moment. Can I just not sit for my exam please? I am still demotivated somehow :(
Anyway, I owe you my birthday entry. Here's a late one, because on my birthday past 3 days I am a little bit lost? and lazy. And I had no life. I had an amazing birthday, mainly because of the wishes I got. I am so thankful for everyone who had wished me, and sending me nice words and duas and all. They really made my day okay, dont underestimate birthday wishes, you dont know how much it means to the receiver. I valued birthday wishes eventhough its a short one. But to be honest I feel a little bit sad when my so called bestfriend only wish me in the ws group. I mean, I did wish her at twitter with her pictures and all that, why cant she wished me a little bit more special than just a simple one. In the freaking whatsapp group. Its like I am not receiving the same love that I gave. She can wish me personally duh, whatsapp me personally, with a little bit "I miss you"s or whatever. But she didnt. Okay then whatever. I will not wish you at all during your birthday next year, because I treat people the way they treat me. Fullstop. I value people who values me. And, I am not going to settle for anything less. That includes for the ones who didnt wish me for my birthday at all because I did wish them. Is it just me who think that birthday wishes are important? Especially when you contacted that person every freaking day or used to be bestfriends. Even if you forgot their birthday you should make up for it, isn't that some kinda friendship rules???
Yeah I know, my birthday is freaking boring cuz no ones want to surprise me with balloons and cakes, thats why I love receiving wishes, the only things that made me feel appreciated on my birthday. On my day. Its only once a year after all. The conclusion is, lesson learnt. I am not going to wish anyone who doesnt wish me. As simple as that. But the weird part is when they did wish me when I didnt wish them tho :/ , I am so sorry !
He did sent me a birthday wish again, you know who. I though I wont receive it anymore this year because he seems happy (?) and I can accept it anyway if he didn't. But he did :') Well, thank you. Because you still remember. It's just a short conversation anyway. Maybe what's left between us is only manners. I do hate you for what you've done but as time passes, it does not matter anymore. What had happened will stay happened. A (great) life lesson. Wishing you a bright future ahead ! (me too) (everyone else too).
I am twenty.
Wish me luck for my final exam! Semester two is gonna end soon yeay! Hello, second year !
(and my cgpa is shi...................no comment.)
mynn
1.11 a.m.
(nice timing!!!!!)
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