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Assalamualaikum, and hye people !

Okay im so rajin with blogging now. Bless IIUM cause they gave us a lot of time to kill before the admission thingy. And, here I am in front of my new sexy baby (age: not yet a week) (almost) ( i swear i will take care of it properly ) (thanks mom and dad) at 1:41 a.m in the morning ! Today is 25th May already, haha two days from now is my birthday ! Im not so excited to be honest. Because, yah I know its going to be not more that plain; tawar; tasteless. Urgh. I hate my last year's birthday so much. I know people is forgetting me. They are not going to give me sweet wishes. Like what I dream of. So, self please. Stop dreaming. No one loves you. Haha!

Im actually reading Vivy's blog now. Thats what Im inspired to write tonight. Lol I am always like that. I need to read some blogs first before I have the mood to write an entry. Mudah terpengaruh, Kowt. Today my friends had done with their university's registration thing and had officially became the Uitm's foundation students. My feeling is - sad, and jelly a lil bit. Seeing them together wargh I cant wait to enter my uni ! My precious- Shiqin and Amy, take care of yourselves okay. You must be grateful dah lah dapat cuti seminggu ! I miss both of you and we will really gonna meet soon ! TT Petaling and Dengkil are only 40 minutes apart hehe. Dont worry be happy. Please dont forget me. #TEAMMEREPUTSEJATI , forever ! And for Dullosh too, dude pls take care of yourself there. I always forget to answer a question at ask.fm , about you, describing you. I will do it soon !

And- fuhh. Hate to mention the name. Please please dont do this to me. I actually really malas to give a fish about things that u did to me, but seriously WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEMS GIRL. What is your problems with me. You remember them but not me? You and your comments at their photos never fail to make me feel small. Dont you remember me? I used to be your friend too but how could you do this to me. Sigh. I think the world now is lack of people who knows how to hargai their kawans a lot? Im not that type of person who buang ppl sesuka hati-especially girls. Kalau boys tu maybe because I have my own reason. Concrete reason regarding our religion and my wrong feeling. But i totally have no probs with girls??????? Its okay. People come and go. I dont need people like you in my life. You made me realize that. You un-important person. Im tired because ppl always leave me with full of question marks hanging in my mind. Why? How is it possible? And no matter how hard I try to come with an answer, I cant even. Because all the answers are with all of you, people who had left me for good.

At this age- eighteen. We have to be really grateful to the ones who stayed, the ones who still text us just because they miss us , the ones who still want to know what we are doing, where will we continue our life at. We must also remember, that they are not permanent. Maybe they will leave us to one fine day, without us realizing the distance is getting wider and wider, day by day. Make it permanent. We are always able to make they stay forever. It all depends. But if they insist to walk away then just let them be. It is their choice. We will meet better people along our journey, okies?

Hye, eighteen. Hye, life. No no.

Hye eighteen. Hye, real life.

Mynn

2:12 a.m